I don’t turn around.
I came back to the wat because the city had too many edges. Too many neon signs that cut the sky. But here, under the ordination hall’s rust-red tiles, the air is thick as old breath. The monks chant in a frequency that vibrates in my molars. I close my eyes, and she is there. pee mak temple
This is where the abbot stopped her. Not with exorcism. With love . He shaved her skull, gave her a white robe, and told her: You are no longer his wife. You are no longer a ghost. You are just suffering. And suffering has a place here. I don’t turn around
As I walk down the stone steps to the street, I feel something soft brush my shoulder. A frangipani petal. Or a hand. But here, under the ordination hall’s rust-red tiles,
Mae Nak. Pee Mak’s wife. The one who loved so hard her spirit refused to leave the womb, the bamboo bed, the narrow soi by the canal. They say her ghost still haunts these grounds. That she stands at the back of the main hall, holding a lotus flower and a grievance.