Policeman: My
What makes My Policeman distinctive is its focus on the mechanisms of repression rather than the passion itself. Tom, the titular policeman, is not a tragic hero in the classical sense; he is a coward. He is a man who enforces the law in public and breaks it in private, then punishes himself—and others—for the transgression.
In the canon of queer tragedy, there is a well-worn path: the repressed romance, the unspoken desire, and the devastation of societal pressure. Bethan Roberts’ 2012 novel, My Policeman , and its 2022 film adaptation starring Harry Styles, tread this path but leave an unusual footprint. Unlike the epic sweep of Brokeback Mountain or the operatic despair of Call Me by Your Name , My Policeman is a quieter, more domestic horror story. It is not about a grand, forbidden affair destroyed by violence, but about a love slowly poisoned by the mundane rot of conformity.
My Policeman has been criticized for being too passive, too mournful, and for centering the suffering of a straight woman (Marion) alongside a gay man. But that critique misunderstands the project. This is not a triumphalist coming-out story. It is an epitaph for a generation who could not come out—who built entire lives of quiet desperation. It is a story about the collateral damage of prejudice. My Policeman
Both the book and the film are obsessed with bodies as historical documents. In the 1990s timeline, Patrick’s body is broken by the electroconvulsive “therapy” he endured after his arrest. He cannot speak or move. Tom’s body is older, softer, still trapped. Marion’s hands, as she cares for Patrick, are the hands of a woman who spent a lifetime touching a man who flinched.
The central metaphor of the novel is the locked cabinet. Patrick, the openly sophisticated intellectual, tries to live a semi-visible life in the shadows of Brighton’s queer underground. Tom, desperate to be “normal,” marries Marion and builds a life of brittle heterosexuality. But the story argues that the closet is not a singular prison; it is a contagious disease. By marrying Tom, Marion becomes an unwitting warden of the closet. Her love for Tom is real, but it is also an act of self-deception. She convinces herself she can change him, that his distance is merely English reserve. The tragedy is that all three characters end up policing each other. What makes My Policeman distinctive is its focus
In the novel, we get Tom’s hollow interiority: his fear, his self-loathing, his pathetic justification that he has to protect his career. In the film, Styles’ performance relies on a clenched jaw and downcast eyes. Critics who dismissed Styles’ acting as wooden missed the point—Tom is wood. He is a man hollowed out by his own inability to feel authentically. The horror is that Tom’s cruelty is not malicious; it is born of a desperate, misplaced kindness. He believes he is sparing Marion humiliation and Patrick a harder punishment. He is wrong.
The photograph on the book’s cover and the film’s poster says it all: three young people on a beach, smiling, beautiful, and full of potential. The tragedy of My Policeman is not that the love failed. It’s that for forty years, they had to pretend it never existed at all. In the canon of queer tragedy, there is
This is the story’s ultimate irony: The love that was once a secret, stolen affair of skin and beach caves becomes, in old age, an act of care. Marion, who hated Patrick for being Tom’s true love, now bathes him and feeds him. And Tom, finally free from the uniform of the policeman, can only watch. The novel ends with a fragile, ambiguous hope—a hand held, a tear wiped away. The film ends with a similar silence, but on screen, the weight of Harry Styles and Emma Corrin’s younger faces juxtaposed against the aged prosthetics of Linus Roache and Rupert Everett drives home the point:
The story’s most devastating sequence—the arrest and imprisonment of Patrick for “gross indecency”—is rendered not as a police raid but as a betrayal by silence. When Patrick is arrested, Tom, the policeman, does nothing. He watches. He goes home to his wife. This is where Roberts’ writing and the film’s imagery diverge productively.
